an9.41:7.1 “That’s so true, Ānanda! That’s so true!
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an9.41:7.2 Before my awakening—when I was still unawakened but intent on awakening—I too thought,
an9.41:7.3 ‘Renunciation is good! Seclusion is good!’
an9.41:7.4 But my mind did not leap forth, gain confidence, settle down, and become decided in renunciation. I didn’t see it as peaceful.
an9.41:7.5 Then I thought,
an9.41:7.6 ‘What is the cause, what is the reason why my mind does not leap forth, gain confidence, settle down, and become decided in renunciation? Why don’t I see it as peaceful?’
an9.41:7.7 Then I thought,
an9.41:7.8 ‘I haven’t seen the drawbacks of sensual pleasures, and so I haven’t cultivated that. I haven’t realized the benefits of renunciation, and so I haven’t developed that.
an9.41:7.9 That’s why my mind does not leap forth, gain confidence, settle down, and become decided in renunciation. And it’s why I don’t see it as peaceful.’
an9.41:7.10 Then I thought,
an9.41:7.11 ‘Suppose that, seeing the drawbacks of sensual pleasures, I were to cultivate that. And suppose that, realizing the benefits of renunciation, I were to develop that.
an9.41:7.12 It’s possible that my mind would leap forth, gain confidence, settle down, and become decided in renunciation. And I would see it as peaceful.’
an9.41:7.13 And so, after some time, I saw the drawbacks of sensual pleasures and cultivated that, and I realized the benefits of renunciation and developed that.
an9.41:7.14 Then my mind leapt forth, gained confidence, settled down, and became decided in renunciation. I saw it as peaceful.
an9.41:7.15 And so, quite secluded from sensual pleasures, secluded from unskillful qualities, I entered and remained in the first absorption, which has the rapture and bliss born of seclusion, while placing the mind and keeping it connected.
an9.41:7.16 While I was in that meditation, perception and focus accompanied by sensual pleasures beset me, and that was an affliction for me.
an9.41:7.17 Suppose a happy person were to experience pain; that would be an affliction for them.
an9.41:7.18 In the same way, when perception and focus accompanied by sensual pleasures beset me, that was an affliction for me.